I have been "starting over" for well over a year now. It seems I am finally to a place where I feel like I am making progress. In the last year, I have moved two states away, given up and found a job, changed houses at least twice, lost a dog, gained a puppy, changed my hair color a couple times, lost nearly 80 pounds and got a new tattoo and a couple of piercings. It has been interesting, to say the least.
I started this blog to keep track of my musings, I have a lot going on in my head and sometimes it just helps to get it out. Today, I guess I'll start with what is on my mind at the moment, the afforementioned piercings.
I got my nipples pierced yesterday. You may think, "Why in THE hell would you want to do that?". Well, I have always found it fascinating, but was always so deep in self loathing that I would not go get it done. I could not stand the idea of taking my shirt off in front of a stranger and "letting it all hang out". Yesterday, after months of telling myself that I have a body to be proud of, even if it still needs a little work, I did it. I stood there, topless in front of not only a complete stranger, but also my sister in law. It was strange, but not uncomfortable. I think I have finally reached a place where I feel comfortable in my own skin, which is something I don't think I have ever been before.
My husband thinks I'm nuts. He just doesn't get it. Men walk around topless all the time. Why would I want to pierce something that a very limited amout of people are going to see? I've tried to explain that I don't get tattoos and piercings for other people to see. They are for me. An affirmation that I am living this life. A story on (and embedded in) my skin. My body is a book, and perhaps not everybody understands the language, but ask and I will translate. I will share my story.
I guess that's also why I decided to start a blog.
You SHOULD be proud of all the changes and achievements and struggles you have overcome!! You are a warrior, girl!
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