My Next 30 Years

So, my birthday is coming up.  Saturday to be exact.  I will have reached the ripe old age of 31.  I, myself, can not believe I have managed to live this long, so I don't expect you too either.

Anyways, with the upcoming anniversary of my birth, I thought I would do a little reflecting.  I won't bore you with all 30 years of my life, but mostly with this last year, the 30th.  This my very well have been THE BEST year of my life.  Of course it's had it's ups and downs.  A lot can happen in a year, I don't expect all of it to be pure awesomeness. (Though of course, this is ME we are talking about, right)

I wish I could pinpoint what it is about this year that has made it so great.  There really isn't one giant thing, but a lot of little things.  I still don't have a whole lot of friends, but I'm strangely ok with that.  I am back in school and doing rather well, though finding time to study is crazy hard.   I have acutally gained 30 of the 80 pounds I lost back.  I am still, however, probably in the best shape I have ever been in.  I am breaking barriers and doing things I never thought I would be doing.   I have hobbies.  My kids are happy, my husband is happy.

I have found a few things I am good at.  Like REALLY good at and actually enjoy doing, which is huge.  No more sitting around moping in boredom.  I finally am able to do thinks I've wanted to do for awhile.  I am more confident and branching out into more unfamiliar territory, a new thing for me. 

The biggest improvement is crawling out of this black hole that grabs ahold of me now and then.  I can feel it creeping in and I am able to shut it out, tell it to fuck off, and go do something that makes me happy, which is new to me.  I haven't always had it good, some years have been downright bad.  I have made dumb mistakes and hurt people intentionally.  Truth is, that's past.  I have finally realized that I should live my life for me and mine and I am going to live it exactly how I want to live it.

I can not be any more excited to see what this next year brings.  I have a feeling I will only get better as time goes by.  Bring it on, world, I'm ready.

School!!!!

Today I sent both my babies off to thier very first day of school.  I think it was really hard for Jaxon to get up as early as he did.  We are all such night owls.  He did really well though, he ate, brushed his teeth and got dressed in a timely manner, which for him is AWESOME.  He was so excited.  We all bundled into the car and drove him to school.  It's kind of a long way and I know he is excited to ride the bus tomorrow, but hey, it's the first day!  When we got to school, he almost left me at the door and bolted to his room.  He didn't want to stop for me to take his picture, he was sooo excited.  I admit, I got a little teary eyed.  That boy is getting so big!!

Then, you know, the three of us came home and took nap lol!  We were all still just so tired.   After our nap it was time to get Carter up and ready for his first day of Pre-k3.  He got dressed SO fast, it was awesome.  He was ready to go and was wanting daddy to hurry up and get ready so we could go.  He practically ran to the car! When we got to the school he was so very excited.  We saw Jaxon and his class coming back from lunch as we drove up.  He looked like such a big boy, doing what the teacher told him to, and waiting patiently. 

When we got around to drop Carter off, it was crazy hectic.  The little kids have lunch first, so they went straight into the hustle and bustle of a busy lunch room.  I think he got a little scared with all the chaos going on around him, but they let us walk him through the lunch line and sit him at his table.  He didn't say much, but he didn't cry, not even when we had to leave.  I think he will be ok once he figures out it's not bad to be in school.  I hope they are both having a lot of fun.  I still have 2 and a half hours until I can pick them up.  I am as caught up on MY schoolwork as I can be without my books (Come on UTA, get your shit together), so I guess I'm going to go to the gym.  Seems like a good time to start back to my workout routine.

I may not make the half marathon this year that I signed up for, but dammit, I will be doing one!! 

Sew, this happened....

It's been a very busy few weeks. I have found myself being much craftier than usual. First, I painted some buckets into camo patterns and found out I'm rather good at it. Then I made some curtains for my cousin, which turned out quite good (and I had quite a good time hanging out whilst making them). Today I made new body pillow covers for Ryan's and my own body pillows. I seem to be getting much better at sewing and guesstimating because these fit better and I didn't have near as many hangups as I did when I made the boys covers. I also think these went much faster. My next project is more camo buckets for a friend of mine. She intends to use them as Easter baskets for her boys. I've bought the buckets, now I just need the paints. I also just found out I can blog from my phone!! And add pics. I'll have to figure out how to change the picture placement an all, I'm not super tech savvy, but I'm so excited. Now I can keep up with my blog and not forget what I wanted to write about when I get home!!

Productivity?

So, today has been one of my more productive days.  Although it feels like I haven't really accomplished anything.  Maybe I just couldn't take one more day of sitting around. 

I got up to damn early to go to work, but since I like where I am working this week, it was not so bad.  I learned a lot of new things and generally had a good time (although 20 minutes into my day, I cut the shit out of my finger....why, oh why do they make me work with knives.  ((Ironically enough, it wasn't a knife I cut myself with, but really whatevs))).  After I got home I managed to change clothes, round up and take out the garbage, empty and bag up the pool (fuckers got a hole and won't stay blown up. Sad panda) to throw out, clean my kitchen, do some dishes (steel wool is the bomb at taking baked on burnt cake off of glass pans, by the way.  You know, should that come up in conversation later), round up the kids and go dress shopping......successfully.   I finally bought a dress for my sisters wedding.  Best bit?  Cost me 16 bucks.  Who's a rock star?


I AM!!

Now I am going to basically sit around and do nothing, except occasionally feed my children.  I think I have accomplished enough today to deserve a break.  And permanent rock star status.

The goings on

My blog has been rather sparse lately.  It turns out that I lead an excedingly boring life.  This is made even more so by the fact that I am not in school this semester so I sleep more.....
Basically, this is what I do all day.  I get up, get my kids breakfast, sit around until its time to go to work (cuz really who can get anything done with these two?) Then I go to work and come home and sit around some more because I can't sleep at night. 

Occasionally, I do something like tear down/put up a fence, but really those occasions are few and far between.  I read a lot, and thats about it.  My life in a nutshell.

The only exciting things happening lately is that I am totally starving every couple of hours.  It's annoying and I'm not sure what it means.  Could be any number of things.  I rarely run anymore because I am so tired after work, I want nothing more than to come home and lay down....then I can't sleep anyways.  bah!

Ryan is supposed to start second shift next week and I have not gotten any confirmation about what is going to happen to my schedule at work.  We obviously can not both work at night.  I hope to talk to the guy today that can change my schedule and get me on first shift.....which means I'll be waking up WAY early  *sigh*.   Such is life I suppose.

And these are the things that happen in my life....nothing, nada, zilch....

Going POSTal

I'm sore.   So very sore.  We have been putting up a fence in our backyard.  This means a LOT of digging holes and being outside in the heat.  We finished putting up most of all of the new back part of the fence on the 4th of July, but then we still had to take down sections of the old fence and move it to replace the rotten bits. 

Today I thought it would be a good day to do just this.  Problem is, we went to a little kids pool party first.  Out in the sun, playing in the pool, swimming, chasing kids.  Tiring! 

SOOOOO, when we came home, I took down the old bit of the fence, to move it around. Ryan took down the rotted bits and began to cut and put up the newer panel.  This left me to tackle the posts left by the old fence.   So whoever put those it SUCKS!!  Of course they are cemented in (duh right) but they didn't do a good job with it.  It was everywhere.  Instead of trying to dig it out, I decided to get out the sledgehammer and just beat the hell out of it and break up the concrete.   TWO HOURS later I get one post out.  That means I have to get another out.  I started on it, but didn't get very far.  My arms are aching and I have blisters.  Maybe I will be able to dislodge that sucker tomorrow.   For now I'm letting it sit.  I'm already sore and I will probably be worse tomorrrow but I am determined to get that thing out!! For now I'm gonna veg and watch Transformers 3...

Back from the land of Oz

FINALLY home!!  What a trip.  Yesterday went fairly smoothly and we actually got there very quickly.  We were there by about 630 and had time to go shopping, have dinner, see some fireworks, and go for a quick dip in the pool.  Kids were so excited to see us.  They barely left our laps for the first hour.   Even then they wanted to be right with us all the time.  Silly boys.

Today went a little slower.  We got a later start and then went to see some of Ryans friends, which was fun, but set us back some more.  I, again took the first leg of the trip and turned it over to Ryan at OKC.  My part was ok, kids were asleep, Ryan was asleep, I controlled the radio and traffic was flowing smoothly...
Then came Oklahoma City.  We stopped, stretched, changed Carters clothes (he peed his pants) and bought some total junk food.    Then back in the car.  Kids are riled up, hopped up on junk food, screaming, poking each other, kicking the chairs....basically being the little heathens that they can be.  Then, 40 mins later, we have to make another pit stop.  Then another.  Then ANOTHER...  Finally we make it out of Oklahoma (I thought it would never happen), and had to make yet another pit stop!!!

Holy cow!!  Once we finally got home, they had to check out EVERYTHING that has changed since they have been gone.  "Oh, look at this, ooh, look at that...."  Carter kept saying, "I like all the stuff you moved"  Lol, well, ok, at least someone is impressed.  They desperately wanted to play in the playroom, but I told them we had to unpack and unwind.  They did help me put thier clothes and toys away and we are now camped on the living room floor, watching cartoons and chilling. 

Tomorrow, I shall have to get back on track with my "diet" and pay more attention to what I put in my mouth.  I have this feeling that I am going to be sluggish and drowsy all day tomorrow.